Re: Struggling with aftermath of high anxiety and panic attacks
Thanks for your reply. That is exactly it! Definietly feels like some part of your brain has been physically removed or shut down and you feel like it will never work or come back again. Its so hard to remember that anxiety lies. My husband can't grasp how I can still be scared of panic attacks despite knowing they aren't harmful. Even with my biology degree, knowledge of the human body and god knows how many panic attacks in the past I've had, its so much easier said than done to not take what a panic makes you feel or think as gospel. I am getting better at dealing with the panics and seeing them for what they are but some are easier than others to deal with and the other day, it was just one after another and then insomnia on top. I only got about 7 hours sleep over 4 days on top of having constant anxiety and frequent panics. It was absolute hell.
One of my worries today was squashed. I managed to cook a proper meal that took over an hour and had little to no anxiety while cooking but it all hit me when I started eating but at least I showed myself that cooking can and will go back to normal once my nerves settle down more. Hoping tomorrow maybe one of my others worries will get squashed - watching TV with my husband. Just can't focus on anything I haven't already seen atm and just keep watching old repeats of stuff alone. We're in the middle of a new show and I am itching to get back to it but if it doesn't happen tomorrow, there's always the next day. I don't want to force myself to do something just to see if I can, especially if its something to do with leisure and something I enjoy normally. Same goes for reading. I can't wait to read again but every time I try and pick up a book right now, I am lucky if I get through one page.
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C-PTSD (Complex Trauma), OCD, Panic Disorder, GAD
"Save your sympathy for someone else. I don't need it or want it. What you call a panic attack is merely a few normal chemicals that are temporarily out of place in my brain. It is of no significance whatsoever to me!"
"Recovery always lies ahead - however painful the moment"
"Recovery lies in the places and experiences you avoid"
Dr Claire Weekes.