For many years now I've been on 30mg of Citalopram but recently I am coming to the conclusion that it's no longer effective. Most days I have that feeling of being on the edge of bursting into tears, along with uncontrollable health anxiety (see the poo-rifling elsewhere) and being utterly neurotic about Covid. Living alone with no work to go to leaves me with plenty of time to obsess about things, even to the point that a panic attack a fortnight ago saw me hospitalised. I can't talk to my family about it - they'd either be angry with me or just bewildered.

So, what's next? CBT seems to be ineffective for me too - I just can't make it work.

Last week, I went to the cemetery to look at my wife's grave and I have to admit, I did ask her if she wanted to swap places.

Any thoughts?