It's been a few years since I last posted here and I just need to get some things off my chest because at this moment I am going through a stressful time involving my girlfriend.
I will start by saying that my girlfriend has a lot of health and mental issues such as autism, bi-polar, borderline personality disorder, diabetes, PTSD (as a result of being abused as a child) and so forth. I've been with her for several years and although things were tough to begin with, overtime she has improved greatly and has made good strides towards a good life.
But during the past week, she was without her medication to help deal with her bi-polar and bpd (nepalim I think it is called) and she should had received her fresh supply of the meds, but for some reason, she hadn't. Perhaps due to a lack of checking from her carers or perhaps her supplier.
Things turned for the worse a couple of days ago. I usually visit her once a week and almost every evening, I vid-message her for a few hours. But two days ago, she seemed fine to begin with but then half way through, something triggered the symptoms and her ailments got worse. She began chatting non-stop and I do mean non-stop. I had no choice but to disconnect her because I had to sleep and it was becoming far too much. She rang me the following morning, I hope she would improve, but it was the same. She couldn't stop talking and her conversations became very paranoid and she was obsessed with something she'd seen on youtube that freaked her out. Again, I had to cut her short because I needed to get ready for work.
I visited her on that evening, I tried to inform her of my arrival via tanoy and phone but no response. I decided to sit it out, but then ten minutes later the police arrived and she was escorted outside. She didn't cause any scene per se, but the police were there in case. I approached one of them and tole them I was her boyfriend and they told me it was best for her to keep close by and allow her to spot me rather than actually approach her.
She responded to my presence positively and embraced me, but then she asked the police to take her away, but the police told her that she had done nothing that was worth arresting for. It's important to know that she is never violent, but it is understandable that her behaviour can be unnerving to others. The police left and she wandered around the gardens. I followed her, but i kept a good distance as not to seem intrusive. I had never seen her behave the way she did. She really was struggling to cope with whatever was going on through her mind. I stuck by her as best as I could.
Eventually, we went indoors to her flat. I only stayed for about an hour because I could not cope. She was a very different person. I could not recognise her. I couldn't reason with her in any way. One minute she'll be sweet as anything, but the next she gets aggressive. The conflict on her mind was too unbearable to watch. I had to leave.
I called her sister, who managed to sort out her meds. I told her that it is best that I avoid contacting her for a while, until she gets better. Despite saying this, I took a phone call from my girlfriend when I got back home. She was really gone. I explained to her to the best of my ability that I need to have some space for a while, maybe it could takes days or weeks. She became tearful saying that she didn't want me to go, but I assured her that I will come back to her someday, but I just needed the time and space.
Right now, I've heard that an ambulance took her to hospital and she had a mental assessment. She's back home and her sister said that she needed to get her meds back into her system and also some rest, because I don't think she slept at all since it got worse. I did ask her to keep me informed of how she's doing.
I've been tearful today and quite scared. I'm getting a phobia of the phone ringing at any moment, in case my girlfriend tries to contact me. I know that, for my own sake and hers, I mustn't answer it until I'm certain she's back to her normal self. I feel awful for having to ignore her, but I feel as though I could make things worse if I answer. I'm dreading the next few days and I am getting very anxious.
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