Re: So lost
The person I know who has lupus just gets on with her life.
Having an actual disease won't necessarily rob you of life and good memories, but health anxiety will.
I've had fibromyalgia for many years now - and I know about pain. I also know about health anxiety. This condition was triggered after my mother died suddenly 9 years ago. The bewildering amount of symptoms over the next years convinced me it had to be cancer, and I had to be riddled with it. But there's never been any sign of actual cancer. Why cancer? Well my parents both had it. I can discount Dad's because his was prostate, but Mum's was ovarian, and it's been a thorn in my arse ever since. But I know what the symptoms are, and I get screened regularly - so I am being proactive. Also, my mother survived the cancer. Some of my maternal great-grandparents etc died of reproductive cancers (ERMAGERD!!) and that's what my brain homed in on when I clapped eyes on their death certificates.
However..
Two things.
One, they were like, really old when they died..
Two, they died before the NHS was a 'thing'.
Why is cancer such a fear with you?
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