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    Being Sucked into the HA Vortex :-(

    Hi all

    I'd been doing so well, but now slipping down the vortex once again.

    So, had a lot of bowel worries, despite having had a colonoscopy less than 18 months ago. Life is very stressful, lots of family problems which I've written about elsewhere. Anyway, I was realy rtying,, and was coping a lot better. So much so that just under two weeks ago, went to visit friends in Essex, and I can remember on the way there I was feeling healthy and strong, and remarked about it to my OH.

    while we were there, we visited a restaurant, and it was only afterwards I realised that I had been leaning in to speak to my friends, as it was so loud in there. Well, thats sent me into a tailspin. I was convinced that I had brought COVID back with me, and had a bit of a tickly throat. Its now nearly two weeks though, so I think maybe not. Unfortunately, my HA has turned on again, and I have been getting chest pains (its a sharp almost burning pain slightly to the left). Its not severe, and only happens a few times a day. So then I was panicking that I am about to go into cardiac arrest (despite having a clear ECG, Echo and stress ECG less than 12 months ago, and cholesterol and BP is within range). I recently started running again (as I had been feeling so much better mentally). I hae had other random pains, last night I woke up with a pain in my outer thigh, it was just in one spot.

    Now today, my abdo feels sort of full and uncomfortable, I dont know why.

    The other thing I would mention is that my OCD is very bad. When I read or hear something about someone else, I feel like I am the person I am reading about. So, if I read that someone has been a bad mother, I think that I am a bad mother, and it all applies to me. This is true also of ill people. I'd like to say a bit more about this, but I dont want to trigger anyone else.

    How do I stop spiralling? Life just seems so hard right now

    Inanna xx
    Last edited by Inanna; 16-10-20 at 11:52.

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    Re: Being Sucked into the HA Vortex :-(

    Sorry to hear you are having troubles. I am also having a bad time with HA at the moment, I really sympathise. I think if it's been 2 weeks it can't have been COVID or you'd have got it by now. Random pains, bowel issues and stuff, all sound like the kind of anxiety-induced issues I also get :(

    The only way i seem to be able to manage when I am getting really anxious with HA is to really distract myself. Spend time with other people even if it's just a zoom call, play a game, watch a film. I've tried walking but it just gets me ruminating...

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    Re: Being Sucked into the HA Vortex :-(

    Quote Originally Posted by Inanna View Post
    So then I was panicking that I am about to go into cardiac arrest (despite having a clear ECG, Echo and stress ECG less than 12 months ago, and cholesterol and BP is within range).
    In that case, my wheelie bin is more likely to go into cardiac arrest than you.

    I recently started running again (as I had been feeling so much better mentally). I hae had other random pains, last night I woke up with a pain in my outer thigh
    I'll leave that one there. It's self-explanatory.

    Now today, my abdo feels sort of full and uncomfortable, I dont know why.
    Where do you hold tension in your body? With me it's generally my abdomen, arse cheeks, and jaw.

    There is a direct link between stress and the gut. You're stressed, so it will affect your tummy.

    Re your OCD, I once thought my brother was the Yorkshire Ripper cus he grew a beard. I can laugh about it now...

    Are you having therapy for the OCD?
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    Re: Being Sucked into the HA Vortex :-(

    Hi

    thank you so much for your replies.
    do you really you think that is the case NoraB.? I keep trying to tell myself itís highly unlikely, but then doubts creep in. I have been told I have a partial right bundle branch block, but that this condition is completely benign. My cardiologist says he is working together name changed as block suggests something dangerous, when in fact it means that the electrical impulse takes a slightly different path , causing microseconds of delay, and not completely in synch with left side .


    as ha is, itís hard to hear the voice of reason, itís like our brains are impervious to it.

    Ihave read on here multiple times that a clear colonoscopy 18 months ago, means that colorectal cancer right now is practically impossible or at very least vanishingly rare

    Iwant to get help for my ocd. But finding a specialist is hard.ive even phoned the charities , but they wonít recommend anyone.

    thank you again

    inanna

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    Quote Originally Posted by Inanna View Post

    Ihave read on here multiple times that a clear colonoscopy 18 months ago, means that colorectal cancer right now is practically impossible or at very least vanishingly rare
    It takes 10 -15 years for a polyp to develop into cancer. It's a very slow process, so yes, it's highly unlikely to have a clear colonoscopy and 18 months later have colon cancer.

    Iwant to get help for my ocd. But finding a specialist is hard.ive even phoned the charities , but they won’t recommend anyone.
    Do you know you can self-refer for CBT on the NHS website?
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    Re: Being Sucked into the HA Vortex :-(

    Hi norahb

    thank you for being so kind to me

    i did an online cbt course via nhs, maybe I should do it again.


    my sister died in the the early hours of this morning,



    inanna xx

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    Re: Being Sucked into the HA Vortex :-(

    Quote Originally Posted by Inanna View Post
    Hi norahb

    thank you for being so kind to me

    i did an online cbt course via nhs, maybe I should do it again.


    my sister died in the the early hours of this morning,



    inanna xx
    Sorry to hear about your sister, Take care x

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    Re: Being Sucked into the HA Vortex :-(

    Sorry for your loss, Inanna.
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    Re: Being Sucked into the HA Vortex :-(

    Quote Originally Posted by Inanna View Post


    my sister died in the the early hours of this morning,



    inanna xx
    I'm so sorry to hear that Inanna. Big hugs lovely. X
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    Re: Being Sucked into the HA Vortex :-(

    I'm so sorry too..I know this was expected but....it's never expected and is truly shocking when it happens.

    Thinking of you xxx

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