I feel fine and functional 95 percent of my life. I'm pretty, helpful and charismatic. I'm a outgoing introvert and a good listener. I say all of this and have to stop myself from thinking of suicide right now. My head is foggy, and I can't focus. I'm totally helpless. This always ends, and i know, take a breath, go for a walk, eat something healthy. I've done it. And i don't know if talking to people is really helpful, either. I tend to synthesize things on my own so I don't know if writing about it here will be of any help.
I know I'm not alone, I can get through this and you can to. but, ugh. make it stop