Re: I am terrified to touch my neck.
Originally Posted by
Thelegend27
I've been doing well with my anxiety, but lately I've managed to convince myself that if I poke around my neck long enough that I'll find a lump or something.
Not doing so well that you're back down the hole though?
Your HA has just been lying dormant waiting for an opportunity and here it is.
Typically I worry about stuff that I really shouldn't be too concerned with for example my heart, my heart has been the center of attention with my anxiety for years due to some occasional palpitations, even though I had heart tests come back normal and I can climb 10 fleights of stairs several times per day better than most of my co workers even carrying semi heavy loads up them I still have that fear lingering.
Healthy heart. Bad case of health anxiety.
My point is I basically train my brain to believe in something and it sticks with me
This works both ways, only positivity and rationality requires more effort. It's easy to scare ourselves shitless - we just run with the negative bias..
so I ask you when you are obsessing over something what is the best way to tune it out, because my theory is if you can block it out long enough the problem should fade away just as if you think about it long enough it gets stronger and stronger, blocking the thought is the hard part but hopefully you may have some suggestions.
If you cover a sink overflow what happens if you keep running the tap? Eventually the water will spill over. Big puddle. Huge mess. Blocking thoughts doesn't address them, especially with HA - it will find another way in.
You need to understand why you are having these thoughts in the first place. Then you need to work on acceptance, which is the key to recovery from HA.
If you don't address health anxiety, you can block thoughts of a symptom as much as you like, but another will pop up in it's place.
The problem isn't in having these thoughts. The problem is in the fear which you add to the thought. As long as you keep firing out those stress hormones, this little merry-go-round will keep going.
My policy is to let those thoughts in because they are just thoughts. Observe them, but don't react to them.
Your HA will have a root cause - something that happened that started it all off. Mine was growing up around a grandad who couldn't breathe properly. What's yours?
This mental disorder is, at it's core, the fear of death, dying or leaving somebody who needs us. It can be fear for ourselves or somebody we love. You have to work out why you have this disorder so that you can understand it, and most importantly, take control of it.
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