Quote Originally Posted by WorriedOlive View Post
Since last posting I feel like I am going downhill. I have been up all night with acid reflux and nausea and I’m terrified this means I have some serious advanced illness.
If you had advanced cancer, there would be a lot more going on inside your body. You are terrifying yourself. You are ramping up your stress levels which is creating the acid that's keeping you up!

I can’t get the reddish BM out of my head since reading cancer patients saying they wish they had acted sooner.
Your HA mind is making a connection from bits of tomato in your poo (normal) to somebody who actually has cancer talking about actual blood in their poo that they didn't immediately act upon.

Have you ever done a FIT test?

I’m just so scared I have these awful scenarios going through my head of being referred to colonoscopy and being told I have stage 4 Bowel cancer and leaving my partner behind when we are supposed to have a whole life left to live together.
Seeing a gastroenterologist on Monday and I’m so nervous
I've had abdominal pain for two months and a load of other symptoms since February. I can't get into my surgery, let alone see a specialist, and I've just been told I could be waiting for up to a year for a colonoscopy!

At least, you are being seen. A lot of people are just having to suffer on at the moment, so at least look at the positives.

Not sure what I’m trying to achieve with this post, more reassurance I suppose. Finding life hard right now
I really hope the gastroenterologist can alleviate your fears on Monday. You'll just have to do your best until then. Stay on the rollercoaster or use this time to try and calm yourself or work on the health anxiety because this really is the best time to start.

Good luck.