Re: Hopelessness
Originally Posted by
erincassells
My depression has increasingly developed over circumstances in the past 10 years. Watching a lifelong best friend of mine die at an early age in her 40's was rough and I miss her still terribly, things became considerably worse for me then.
I understand you here too. My friend was 46 when she died..
The challenge is convincing myself that I deserve better than what I'm experiencing right now and that feeling better is possible. It's very hard to imagine and see that right now
Again, I understand you because I've experienced that bleakness and hopelessness that comes when contemplating a future when the present (and the past) is so hard to bear. But I'm happy now because I made changes. Nobody waved a magic wand and made things better, although I often wished they would. I decided one day that I'd had enough of being unhappy. I wanted to be happy andin order to be happy major changes had to be made and I was the only one who could make them.
You have your mum, and that means you have somebody. We're all here to listen too. You're not as alone as you think.
I got there in the end, and I'm sure that, with support, you will get there too. This is your story and you can absolutely change the script.
You deserve to be happy, so make it happen. X
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