Re: Obsession with bowels killing me
Originally Posted by
HA1989
I done the following;
Hypnotherapy
Psychiatrist
Councillor
Endless CBT
Home visit councillor
Acupuncture
Vitamins
Sertraline
Citalopram
Diazepam
Zopiclone
Propranolol
Daily exercise
List is so long I have done everything I can.
But then maybe I am ill so I have to be careful to admit to HA in case it is the real deal
The only thing I’m doing at the moment is the exercise though
Meds and drugs commonly affect the bowels, as does anxiety - and it can be constipation, the shits, or a combination of both.
To control HA, you must consider the logical (and most likely) option aside the life-threatening one your HA mind wants you to dwell on. You will no doubt have been taught this with your therapy, but it hasn't worked, so there may be something going on at a subconscious level, or you've been unlucky with therapists, or their particular style doesn't work with you.
When you say you can't imagine someone on here suffering more than you are? I had a full mental breakdown due to HA. I couldn't function. I sat in a chair or I paced when I was unable to exist with the feeling of 'electricity' flowing through me. I only went out to go to the doctors, A&E, and the out of hours service. I couldn't eat. I felt sick all the time. I had to wear sea-sickness wristbands and drink ginger tea like it was going out of fashion. I was physically sick and constantly retching when I spoke or coughed. I had severe insomnia and nocturnal panic attacks - sometimes up to four major attacks in a night. I lost 2 stone. My muscles wasted. I had chronic constipation where I had to be given super strength laxative and I could hardly walk for the pressure affecting my front and back passage. I had symptoms affecting my entire body. Burning mouth, swollen tongue, phantom itching, palpitations. Sore scalp. Pains in my chest. One morning my heart 'stuck' at 143 bpm from 2am until about 6am when they gave me a beta-blocker in accident and emergency. I reached a point where I only felt safe when I was at the doctors or in hospital because I told myself, if I dropped to the floor, they would have to help me. I had also developed chemical sensitivity - so I couldn't tolerate medication. The Doc took me off the beta-blockers after a week - and most every other medication they tried me on. So I had to crawl my way out of this shithole without the help of meds.
HA can take you ALL the way down, believe me!
What you do is you keep going. You keep trying different therapies and different therapists. Keep trying to think logically. Accept illness as a possibility, and death as a certainty, and work out the life you want working within those parameters.
All the best.
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