Can’t go on

[Mr Polite]

It's not "all this medication," believe me. It is serving to get you over a challenging time. You need your sleep to manage the day The diazepam needs to be taken regularly not on an "as needed" basis. Trust your GP. You are having the right treatment but just need to continue with it without worrying about dependency etc. You need to accept this help because it is all part of the recovery package.

You're not rambling..You're in genuine distress but what you are experiencing is what many of us on here have been through and come out the other side. It just doesn't feel as if you will at the time.

Thank you, I really appreciate your continued reassurance. It makes me feel less isolated. I know deep down that it’s anxiety and depression and it will pass. I am just astounded by had bad your mind can make you feel.

[pulisa]

Oh yes...Your mind can take you to terrible places but the trick is to remember this and not to be frightened by thoughts which are not based on fact.

Normalising anxiety can take the sting out of it. Understanding what drives anxiety is also key. I think finding a therapist who you can gel with once you are feeling a bit more settled will be a very positive move and you will be taking control back. Feeling out of control is horrible but it is an illusion.

[Mr Polite]

Oh yes...Your mind can take you to terrible places but the trick is to remember this and not to be frightened by thoughts which are not based on fact.

Normalising anxiety can take the sting out of it. Understanding what drives anxiety is also key. I think finding a therapist who you can gel with once you are feeling a bit more settled will be a very positive move and you will be taking control back. Feeling out of control is horrible but it is an illusion.

Yes, I did have a consultation with a therapist yesterday who uses mindful based therapy approaches. I have no idea what type I need but he seemed to think he could help and specialises in anxiety and panic.

[pulisa]

Yes, I did have a consultation with a therapist yesterday who uses mindful based therapy approaches. I have no idea what type I need but he seemed to think he could help and specialises in anxiety and panic.

I'm pleased you've chosen someone. Give it a few sessions and see how you respond? You are actively working towards feeling more in control and more able to cope with getting through the hours. You've made some positive choices and have got psychological and pharmaceutical support. You've got access to MH professionals over the weekend should you need it via the crisis line and you have a supportive family behind you who love you and want you to get better.

[Rad1]

Sorry to hear you are struggling. I’ve been through it many times. It’s extra difficult with the added pressures of a young toddler. I was on citalopram previously. As I started it made my anxiety 😟 get worse for 4 weeks. Less sleep too. Then it clicked in and I calmed down. Ditto on a dosage increase. So be kind and caring to yourself. It’s not your fault and we are not put on earth to feel this way (as my former GP said once). It made me cry and cry. There is so much to figure out about why you are struggling.

[Mr Polite]

Sorry to hear you are struggling. I’ve been through it many times. It’s extra difficult with the added pressures of a young toddler. I was on citalopram previously. As I started it made my anxiety 😟 get worse for 4 weeks. Less sleep too. Then it clicked in and I calmed down. Ditto on a dosage increase. So be kind and caring to yourself. It’s not your fault and we are not put on earth to feel this way (as my former GP said once). It made me cry and cry. There is so much to figure out about why you are struggling.

Thanks Rad. Sorry you’ve had to deal with something similar. I’m still really struggling. I had to go to a and e on Friday. I was just walking around Bristol in a desperate state and a stranger stopped to see if I was ok and I broke down. She walked with me to the hospital. It’s strange as I felt calm as soon as I was there and got a day or so after and then it just bites back again.

[pulisa]

That's a lovely empathetic message from Rad..I'm sorry things are so distressing for you, Mr P. There are still some good samaritans about and maybe this lady knew just what you were going through? I know that I would. I would say that you won't find a solution at A&E, only a long wait and a chat with the psych liaison service plus some leaflets to take away..if you're lucky

Have you had any more sessions with the private psychologist? I would agree with Rad in that there must be a root cause to all this which has lead to your current despair. It's a good sign that you had a few days break from the intensity. Yes it does bite back-you are not unusual in this. Maybe have a chat with your GP about the incident on Friday? Do you actually receive a service from your community mental health team? If not would you feel safer asking for a referral?

[Mr Polite]

That's a lovely empathetic message from Rad..I'm sorry things are so distressing for you, Mr P. There are still some good samaritans about and maybe this lady knew just what you were going through? I know that I would. I would say that you won't find a solution at A&E, only a long wait and a chat with the psych liaison service plus some leaflets to take away..if you're lucky

Have you had any more sessions with the private psychologist? I would agree with Rad in that there must be a root cause to all this which has lead to your current despair. It's a good sign that you had a few days break from the intensity. Yes it does bite back-you are not unusual in this. Maybe have a chat with your GP about the incident on Friday? Do you actually receive a service from your community mental health team? If not would you feel safer asking for a referral?

Hey Pulisa, hope you are well. Thanks for your message.
I think it’s the face to face side of a and e that I found solace in. I’ve used the crisis line, spoken with doctor and have had two zoom sessions with a psychotherapist, I just find it so hard to connect in 2d. I’ve been reading about the nervous system and polyvagel theory which kind of explains the human connection and safety I’m seeking.
I’ve got a call with community team this week. I now keep worrying social services are going to take my daughter away because I expressed desperate thoughts at the hospital.
Jonny

[BlueIris]

Please don't worry about that, Jonny? I'm sure they'll know like we do that you're a great father; sure you've got problems, but you're actively seeking help. I think your family are also basically supportive?

There's absolutely no need to torture yourself with this one.

[Mr Polite]

Please don't worry about that, Jonny? I'm sure they'll know like we do that you're a great father; sure you've got problems, but you're actively seeking help. I think your family are also basically supportive?

There's absolutely no need to torture yourself with this one.

Thank you. Yes they are supportive.