I haven't been here for two years almost, I've been doing so well, no anxiety what so ever, then it slowly started to hit me. I knew I was going in the wrong direction the day I found myself 02:30 at night starring in the mirror because my breast / areola looked weird, and some weeks after, there was something in my mouth that looked funny also. So I was kinda prepared at tried to relax, do yoga and be good to myself...

Then on the 22 of December I had Acupuncture for Fertility, after almost 5 months with no luck, almost straight after I had the urge to pee all the time, at that time I did not connected it with my Acupuncture. I survived Christmas but it got worse and before the New Year I called my doctor and got pills for an UTI, I don't know if that was the case, cause the only time I had one 10 years ago, It was really painfull, like peeing glass... This was not painfull, but the urge to pee felt like an UTI. I got pills for 3 days and it got a little better. But I still have the pressure at my bladder, mostly at night. When I wake up everything is completely normal, and I have periods trough out the day, where it feels normal, but then it sometimes come back after I pee, its like when my bladder is halv full or full its fine, but when its empty I get this really annoying feeling, Sometime it almost feel like a pressure on my clitoris, like Ive been aroused for a long time.

Now at this point I already was fearing Ovary Cancer, Now my fear is out the window crazy... I fear the worst. I have a doctors appointment monday, and right now I fear they feel somethis inside of me, and send me to a specialist where I have to wait weeks for any answer, I almost considered to pay myself to go directly to a specialist gyno.

I will say the symptoms are slowly getting milder, even thou my brain tells me its because im used to it now, and it still the same.. I have now considered if the Acupuncture play a part in this, if she hit a nerve, or if its just anxiety symptoms and tension, and a constant focus on my bladder...

Sometimes at night I just get this horrendous feeling that Im gonna die, and I shake a lot.