Good morning,

Can someone help me rationalise this please?
It's driving my panic at the moment, and has put me in a really bad way.

I was Googling the benefits of mindfulness last night to try and get my head into doing it again, but was frightened after what it did to me last time, as trying to sit with thoughts, quietly, is what I fully believe has made me so much worse. I came across loads of reports and information that mirrors exactly what has happened to me. The amplification of issues, the intense derealisation, the constant lingering introspection, it's all what has happened to me, exactly, and I still can't get out of my own head to this day. It's like a switch was flicked, and I can't get out of it again.

I'm scared that my efforts to 'sit with thoughts', that I took way too far early last year, under the advice of my therapist then, have permanently damaged my mind.

The links below are just two of the negative assessments of mindfulness, so obviously don't read them if mindfulness helps you.

Thank you.

https://www.google.co.uk/amp/s/www.p...h-anxiety/amp/

https://www.theguardian.com/lifeands...-making-us-ill