Hello, I'm here again, I've been feeling abit better about covid because of my therapist helping me through things weekly. Im isolating with my son who's 2 next month, were ok luckily.. my sons Dads mom has covid 19 she doesn't seem to bad yet, a few people in his family have it luckily are fine.. anyway his cousin who's pregnant aged 32 is in hospital on oxygen with covid and bloodclots on her lungs. I am officially petrifed again. I keep cleaning ive tested neg just 2 days ago, my sons dad has had a rapid test came back neg and is isolating with us so he can be with his son.. which may I add im finding stressful anyway because he's so toxic towards things and he's a very negative person which makes me bad. But it was either him here and see my son or not see him until this is over with which isn't fair on my son anyway the whole point of this is im petrified im going to get it and die I haven't slept I hardly eat ive lost iver 2 stone in weight quite quickly aswell I mean im finding it very stressful I just want my mom who's also shielding cos of her copd. I am healthy other then anxiety and reflux but I can't help but think the worst.. like everyone close ro home is getting it now where as before it wasn't really nobody I knew :( how can I stop stressing so bad over it :(