hi I am new here , I am 33 with two children ten & eight. from about the age of 26 after the birth of my second child i suffered with depression and anxiety /panic . Would not go out as had no motivation whatsoever and fatigue was terrible. Kept on going to doctors crying saying I dont knows whats wrong with me , she kept on saying depression I was saying no .i have nothing to be depressed about, which I know is totally not like that , I was just finding it hard to beleive that yes "me " had depression and I kept thinking you had to have a reason. I cut off from everyone as I couldnt be bothered to maintain friendships. Just went through the motions.
I started taking st johns wort (kira ones ) and they turned my life around literally give them at least 3 months its subtle but does work and I would say i was in quite a bad way, nervous exhaustion shakes suicidal thoughts etc. You just dont care when you are depressed. Even though mood is fine now and I no longer have taken st johns wort for 6 months just a multi vitemin and fish oils, I suffer with anxiety/panic/pmt. its been made worse by the fact I have just failed my 6 th driving test in the space of 3 months(last 2 driving tests I only got 2 minors as well)( I was failed for stalling on one of them) when I am told I have failed I burst into tears and it really does affect me and I think the repeated failure of it has affected me as I am quite nervy now. My seventh one is due now within the next two weeks and I get these ruminating thoughts of being a failure and feel like I will never pass . I would like to go for cbt and I have bout Kalms and am scared to take them. I have anxiety/panic even when I am not as stressed as well. I get panicked in supermarket yesterday and I went to toilets and soaked my arms in basin with cold water and my heart was thumping. It stops me doing anything , I have to walk to get my children from school everyday 2 miles there and 2 miles back and this feels me with panic , I dont want to give in to this but that terifies me , I cant relax in social situations , will kalms help me I havent had one as I am scared too. I cant go to hairdressers as I hate being tipped back in to basin I have my hair cut at home where I can wash it in shower. Dentist is the same I have to say can you sit me up its ike I am scared of everything and I have loads of palpitations and i feel uptight
any advice please cant help thinking