Hello Everyone,
This may be a bit long and I'm not sure whether this was the right place to post this.
So I travelled back from visiting my family for xmas after 14 days of isolation and two negative tests, since they all tested positive.
I came back home and started having symptoms whilst I was working in the university clinic, weird symptoms like blocked hearing and sore throat. I blamed it on my acid reflux, since it was bad over the past few days.
I had a lateral flow test done, just for the peace of mind. It came back positive and I ordered another home test to make sure and it came back positive again. I then let the clinic know and all my housemates know that I had a positive test.
I wore a mask whilst out in my room and clleaned surfaces down and washed my hands. The one time one of my housemates caught me outside my room without a mask (I'm exempt, but I still try to wear one and I felt depressed and anxious thanks to isolation - I have autism), she went absolutely ballistic at me, saying that she'll send me the bill for her rent and bills to pay since she won't be able to work.
Then another time , I used the upstairs bathroom then she had a right go at me, saying that she'll never forgive me if she catches it and I shouldn't even be out of my room. That I should use the ensuite I have (the toilet in there is horrible, makes a horrible noise and I know it sounds stupid but I have phonophobia/Ligyrophobia - I brought that up but she said "id rather have you hear a loud sound than someone getting COVID) I wiped the surfaces I touched , wore a mask. I broke down, I was exhausted. I had enough of it.
I had a meltdown and punched the floor a few times. Felt like nothing I did was good enough.
I checked with the university about what to do now after my symptoms disappeared after my isolation period ended. They told me I'm free to go back to the clinic and I do not need to book another test.
Only today I was using the bathroom and she had a go at me again. I stood my ground this time saying that threatening me to pay her rent is not acceptable, she said that she glad she said it and it wasn't a threat but a promise, since I "threatened her" with COVID, she was acting in self defence. She said she never wanted to go through with it anyway, only if it puts her in hospital.
She said that I shouldn't be out (even though my isolation has finished) and that I need another test, I told her the university said I didn't need one. She said the university and guidelines is wrong and that I should use common sense and test before clinic. Everytime I said I followed the guidelines as best I could, she snapped back; well the guidelines are wrong, you also haven't been sympathetic nor thinking about us (I barely even know what I'm feeling, let alone expressing it towards someone else). I said yes I have, I've been cleaning surfaces and washing hands and wearing a mask 99.9% of the time and I've been following the guidelines, and again it goes back to "the guidelines are wrong." Feels like nothing I did was good enough.
I just don't know what to do, we have been friends for 5 years. I've contacted the university about this situation (did not mention her name) and they find it unacceptable. Felt like she's lost all empathy and barely listened to my concerns. She's attacked my beliefs before. Seems like something snapped in her. I can understand being scared or frustrated at me for bringing it in, but its not like I knowingly did it. I'm locked in my room starving, scared to come out because I don't trust anyone to cook for me (I do my cooking in a certain routine). She has a daughter with aspergers and she keeps comparing her to me, it gets me really annoyed. Like we are some sort of collective or something "Well she's coping well with a mask and lockdown, so should you."
Sorry this was a bit long, thanks for listening to my rant
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