I feel as if I 've become obsessed with therapy and trying to find the perfect treatment. I just realized that this is something that has been going on. For the last three years, I find myself constantly rehearsing for therapy, googling problems, self-diagnosing, reading self-help books, trying to implement therapy perfectly and worst of all none of it feels like its enough. I find myself looking for more therapy and advice, higher levels of care, and it feels as if nothing will ever be enough to make the therapy feel "just right." I don't know how to break out of this loop. I feel like I don't want to even implement the things I learned because the timing doesn't "feel" right or I might not be doing it correctly enough. It's really becoming very counter productive. It feels like I'm trying to fill the void with advice and therapists.