Re: Almost certain my test results point to bowel cancer
Originally Posted by
HopeI'mWrong:P
I am utterly devastated.
It very much sounds like you don't have bowel cancer..
Do you take Ibuprofen at all?
I'm really losing it. I'm not sure why I'm actually posting here because as I typed that all out I just convinced myself even more. I have a child and they are going to have to grow up without a mum. The though of dying terrifies me. I'm so scared. Can anyone say something supportive, please? Thank you.
I understand, totally. This was the fear which crippled me with HA. But listen, I really don't think you have BC and one reason is that cancer doesn't take time off without treatment - it just keeps growing! It's highly unlikely that you'd have negative or borderline results in-between high ones if this was cancer, and I imagine there would be a lot more going on in your blood work.
I've recently done the calprotectin test and they're looking for inflammation and there are lots of reasons for this, like a bacterial infection/ overgrowth, and some medications can produce high results - which is why I've asked you about Ibuprofen etc
You're HA mind has done what it will always do which is to take you to the very worst case (and least likely) scenario and it's always terminal. I personally know one person who had bowel cancer and she lived (cancer free) for another 40 years after and died when she was 93! Then again, this was my aunty who was the epitome of 'battle axe'. Bowel cancer kill her off? It wouldn't dare!
Take comfort in the fact that gastro specialists - who see people with bowel cancer - are convinced that you don't have it. That's not to say that there isn't a gastric issue, but even if that's the case - it will be sorted.
Do yourself a massive favour and stop trawling the internet because your HA mind will see what it wants you to see and will ignore the rational stuff. I was 100% convinced I had bowel cancer too, so convinced that I planned my own funeral! But there was no cancer. Nothing life-threatening at all - just my IBS being a pain in the @rse..
The fear of leaving my son (autistic) had to be addressed, so I re-framed it all. I know of a child who lost his mum and people stepped up, as they will always do. This child is happy, supported, and enjoying secondary school - excelling in sports. Children are more resilient than we think. Your child isn't going to lose you - not this time - but this fear needs to be addressed because HA will keep coming back. Time spent dwelling on a future that you cannot predict is quality time with your child wasted. You do have this time. Don't allow HA to steal that from you.
I absolutely agree with what Joe's said re alcohol and anxiety. Drinking to relieve anxiety doesn't work. A few drinky poos of an evening might take the edge off for a few hours but it will be back to bite you on the @rse within a few hours when dehydration kicks in and your liver tries to remove the toxins. Some people's 'anxiety' disappears completely when they stop drinking. What does that tell you?
Last edited by NoraB; 28-01-21 at 07:41.
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