I don’t really know what advice I want or replies. But I just need to get it out to people who understand. I’ve recently fell back down the HA path, I suffered from 16-18 severely with lymph node anxiety. I then managed to control my symptoms up until now. I don’t know if it’s lockdown, nothing new has happened but I’ve got back into the routine of looking at illnesses, checking, self examinations, everything really and I really don’t know what to do. I am so so so depressed. I am so lonely, I’m only 22 so when I speak to family members they tell me to stop worrying I’m too young blah blah. But I’m aware bad things happen to any age, but why should I let my life be consumed by it? Why can’t I just be normal? This is ruining my life, I’m hardly speaking to friends, I’ve started having panic attacks again, all I’ve got in my head is I’m dying and that’s that. I just wish I could control this better. I feel like this will be my life forever worrying and worrying until I actually get ill and then I’d of spent so much time worrying that my life wouldn’t of mattered anyway. I am currently day 5 of fluoxetine btw! So I am trying something to get better but I think it’s making me worse before the good effects. I just don’t know what to do.
I’m sorry for the rant. I just needed to get it out. I’m not sure if I’ve posted this in the right place either.