Last Spring my anxiety was pretty much full-on triggered after not being able to find a job for the summer. This, accompanied by stressful schoolwork that I kept feeling like I was mentally incapable of doing made me more anxious than ever. The anxiety manifested in very typical physical symptoms such as dizziness, palpitations, feeling out of breath etc. The anxiety was also accompanied by derealization and general brain fog. Essentially, whenever I had a bad day with anxiety I was very jumpy and my brain felt like it wants to jump out of my skull. I felt like running or screaming or whatever to exit from the current moment.

Fast forward to this spring; during the fall and winter my anxiety was much better. I felt much safer leaving my house and generally not as worried about losing my mind. Also, as opposed to last year, I was able to secure a great job in the long term, my studies are going terrific and I'm steady with my girlfriend.

So, even despite all these seemingly improved things, the springtime has again made me anxious. This time around I really can't pinpoint any exact causes of anxiety, as it's more a general feeling throughout the day. However, this year I feel like my anxiety has manifested in more mental symptoms.

This year I've had several spells of derealization, feeling like my brain is not functioning right. Again, I feel like my brain wants to exit out of my skull and feel like I need to do something about it or I'll vanish. Existential thoughts combined with general uneasyness combine to make a very tiring day to day routine, and I feel much less productive.

I guess what I'm aiming at here is pleading for peer support from people who have dealt with similar feelings; what do you do when you feel like your brain wants to jump out of your skull? When you feel like you need to do something but don't know what? When you feel like you might lose your mind completely any day now?

Thanks in advance for any responses.