BC is what started my HA. I have dallied with other diseases, chiefly brain tumors and colon cancer...with ovarian and pancreatic cancer on the side, but BC is my boogy man for HA. I have checked my breasts for years...I do it all the damn time. My son even commented on it and yes, I am ashamed to admit that. Anyway, I am 44 this year and decided if I can get the Covid shot (which I did) I can schedule my mammogram. So, it is tomorrow morning and I cannot eat or concentrate. I am afraid they will find something and even more afraid that they won't and I will be relieved only to find a lump a few months from now which will be really sinister. I have known two women who that has happened to-clear mammos and then 3 months later, a cancerous lump. I feel damned if I do, damned if I don't right now. And, I am supposed to do this yearly through age 55? How do you do this regularly? I am just sick over this. I did tell my two best girlfriends I have it scheduled, so they can text me and make sure I keep the appointment. YUCK.