I really recommend going back through your post history. You’ve ranged from panics about Cushings, female issues, pancreatic cancer, brain tumors, colon issues, even over things like stomach bugs and head colds. I know you are terrified of doctors. But which is worse? Living with the daily panics and anxieties over perceived health issues, or actually just going to the doctor for a checkup?? Your post history goes back to like 2012 or 2015 - that’s a whole lot of wasted years.
please understand I’m not trying to shame you or anything. We’re all here because in one form or another, we have anxiety and need support sometimes. But the reassurances you get on this forum don’t seem to help you. If they do, it’s very short lived. I honestly feel that there’s nothing anyone here can say that will resonate with you. It’s time for real world help, or continue the way you are.