I don’t know if this is in the right spot or not but, I’ve come to a point in my life where I have literally no motivation anymore and I don’t know why. Everyday is a struggle for me. I left a toxic job recently to start a new one a few weeks ago hoping it would make my life easier to say the least. But I have no motivation to start learning a new job again, and I feel like I’m in a brain fog every single day and the things I take in at this new job just go in one ear and out the other. That scares me because if I don’t learn the job properly, I obviously won’t do well and therefore I won’t be able to work. And there’s so much that I have to learn, and it’s making me incredibly anxious, and I already want to leave. And on top of that, I have no motivation to even finish college because I’ve had to work full time and I don’t have the time to do any of my schoolwork, and that compounds me not wanting to do anything anymore either.
I could literally go on and on with a ton of other issues compounding my problem, but I wouldn’t even know where to start. I’ve tried to better my life so many times, and each time I think it’s going somewhat marginally better, it just gets taken away. I can’t think of anything else to try and make it better anymore. I thought life would get better as I got older but it has just gotten worse.