It really upsets me to be writing this post but I've really drop back a couple of steps in my recovery- well alot of steps.
After alot of stressful things like a trip to a&e and other upsetting things everything has come crashing around me. I'm back to the habit of worrying over my heart, constantly feeling it race and jump in my chest. I don't want to work out anymore, even go do to the shops or a walk because it unsettles me so much. I've been just sitting on my couch and freaking out over dying until my partner comes back. I have constant headaches- a few minutes ago I was hit with the worst exhaustion of y life and nearly face plated into my dinner. I'm trying to remember my years of therapy and how far I've come- that this stuff is scary but I've had lots of heart tests over the years (Had a clear ecg in August 2020 and lots/lots of heart tests in earlish 2020), that I'm stressed- that I'm alot of negative things at the moment. The last few weeks are hard and getting harder but trying to remind myself I can deal with this. I've done it before- It's just really hard to think that way at the moment.
Sending everyone a big hug right now xx