Karen
I have been reading your story for a while now and I found myself wanting to know how you are doing each week. I think this is because we never want to hear that people are having a rough time of it at the moment, so we want to help.
Keep up with the good work and you will get there in the end, there is always light at the end of the tunnel.
When my brain goes overactive I paint my toe nails. Sounds silly but concentrating helps me relax slightly, have you tried that?