Hi,

Today i handed my notice in!!, i've been suffering from anxiety for a long time but it got worse recently when my sister had a Covid Stroke and spent all of xmas and most of January in hospital and it just knocked me down (she has 4 kids all relatively young) and it just sent my anxiety through the roof.

I have been in touch with the doctors who have me some meds but i'm kinda sat waiting for CBT which would be years as it currently stands the NHS list.

As it is i was struggling with work and have pretty much taken all my holiday leave up (they gave me January off as furlough) as i was helping my sister and family out.

but i've found recently i just cannot work my brain fogs, up i get exhausted and cannot function, i cannot sleep, spend all my spare time worrying, and / or isolating myself from my wife and kids.

So i've handed my notice in against the Doctors advice, and do have a new position to go to but boy i can't help the feeling i have made a massive mistake, what will happen if i have the same issues at the new position, i hope the anxiety is fuelled by the coronavirus and bad management at work (feeling isolated as they never communicated with me, and the lack of a team as everybody else is working from home.)

The new job is more money so i already feel more valued but of course more money can mean higher expectations. i have now 6/7 weeks off to prepare myself for it as i really don't want to screw this up.

I hope it's a positive step as i find this a real struggle and it gets harder and harder to carry on, i try and hide this from my wife and kids but its starting to break me!.