Hi all
im desperately trying not to slip back into the HA abyss. I was doing so week for a while.
so, last night I stupidly had alcohol to be sociable. I rarely drink, but last night I had way too much wine for a lightweight like me. In the morning, there was no decaf so I also had full decaf coffee, which I never drink either. Today, the palpitations are back, and I feel so guilty about the alcohol. I have ocd, and not following rules ( drinking alcohol is bad and I should not do it). I feel like something dreadful will now happen.
as I said, I was doing so well. In fact on weds I had my Bupa health assessment, and the dr was unhappy with my breast examination, saying my upper right breast felt more nodular than the left, and that she thought I had some dimpling when I was lying down. Even that did not panic me. Okay, I was concerned, but no full blown ha panic ensued. I have to wait two weeks to go to the one stop breast clinic.
So now I知 panicking about the palpitations, and the breast clinic. Nice one Inanna, you are a complete twonk.
is there any way I can nip this in the bud? Maybe a diazepam tonight, to try to get back to where I was.?
any ideas anyone?
thanks for reading
Inanna xx