Back here again... I’m so disappointed with myself

[pulisa]

Please don't let yourself spiral..? Get it checked out by a GP? It could be just a simple cyst and you are worrying needlessly and predicting the worst? Why would you lose your partner anyway?

Please get it looked at if you are feeling so low and get a professional opinion? xx

[NoraB]

However, I am still in the rabbit hole. I have “something” on my labia, and now am thinking I have vulval cancer. It’s not a lump, but more like a hard spot. I thinks it’s been ther for at least two years, but now I am thinking it seems a little bigger, to the touch.

I have little bumps on my vulva area; they're from shaving. Before the meno, I was like Sasquatch down there and it wasn't a good look.

It's very common to get sebaceous cysts on the vulva and this is what your sounds like tbh, but I always get all things fadge checked out. I just think it's common sense.

Also, I find that there is a skewed sense when it comes to down there because if I touch mine, they feel massive - yet when I look at them using a mirror - I can hardly see anything at all.

Speak to your GP if you're concerned, but I don't think you have anything to worry about lovely.

[Catkins]

I get lots of lumps and bumps downstairs. I'm a very cysty person and have had them inside my body and on the surface.

[Inanna]

Thank you all for your replies, they really help to calm mediwn

pulisa I worry that my partner will leave me because he will think me disgusting ( as I think that of myself), and that I have exposed him to a possible sti.

I did summon up the courage to have a look ( I’m always afraid to look down there, Especially as I get older), and it does indeed look smaller than it feels. I looks like a spot, it’s whitish and round. it’s on the smooth inner part, so not sure if that could be from a sebaceous gland?

anyway, I’ve managed to get an appointment at the gum clinic this morning, so at least I’ll know one way or the other (I hope)

Inanna xx

[Inanna]

Hi,

I just thought I’d update this thread. I went to the gum clinic, and the lady clinician there said it just looked like a cyst, which are common. She said if I was worried I could go to see my gp.

It’s a bit confusing, as she said it was a cyst, but then saying I could go to gp? Shall I just accept her diagnosis, or was she telling me she wasn’t sure?

im off on holiday tomorrow to the Lake District, and I so want to enjoy it without worrying all the time

Inanna xx

ps, I like the word fadge , never heard it before ��

[pulisa]

The gum clinic staff would be more knowledgeable about these things than the GP. They see these things every day. A GP doesn't.

Enjoy the Lake District, Inanna and trust the specialists xx

[flatterycat]

Oh my goodness. You describe exactly how I think and feel. It’s nice to hear someone else articulate it!
Every single time I have had a health concern I have been a mess. All my CBT sessions trying to get me to sit with it, distract myself or accept go out the window each time because I always think that the one time I don’t freak out, it will be bad. Logically I know this is silly but it feels very real. I also always think that each time I ‘get away’ with an illness, it raises the chances of it being true next time!

My one wish is to be able to accept uncertainty and enjoy life, but this thinking stops me. It’s like I’m afraid that if I enjoy myself too much and relax, then something will definitely happen

Well, today is the day.

Ive managed to keep my anxiety at a low level and kept myself busy. However, today I am thinking that all the other times I have freaked out about something and it’s turned out to be nothing, this time I’ve coped so the irony will be that I will get the worst case scenario and it will be serious .


I have been feeling my breasts quite a lot, trying to work out what she was feeling. Oddly , my left breast feels lumpier, I can feel something at the top, about an inch in size



Inanna xx

[pulisa]

Then again...It might not?

You say you hate uncertainty but if something "definitely" will happen if you relax your guard.... that doesn't make sense?

[Catkins]

She probably mentioned GP because sometimes cysts can become a little inflammed and if it's a persistent bugger you might need something from the GP. Usually with mine they either just fade away or burst. Just keep the area clean, bathing in salt water is always my first go to with wounds of any kind (in case it bursts). Don't prod and poke it it'll make it sore.

Enjoy the Lake District! (I'm fortunate enough to be within spitting distance).