My anxiety is being triggered

[pulisa]

And the news from hubby's side of things. He spoke to the doctor today and she has prescribed anti-spasmodics and she wants two poo samples to check for any jnfection/blood etc. She offered him amitriptyline to help him sleep, but he declined for now because if the anti-spasmodics work he should sleep.

I hope he had a better night..

[Catkins]

He didn't really, slightly easier.

I woke up in a complete panic wondering how he was and then getting really anxious about work so I bit the bullet and just phoned the GP for another sick note.

Feeling low about it to be honest. Just don't think I'm ready to go back again yet.

[BlueIris]

Don't beat yourself up over it? There's no point in pushing yourself too hard.

[Catkins]

I know, I just feel like a failure.

I've also tried to get in touch with a private counselor I used to see to see if I could book some time with her.

I was quite optimistic yesterday but it's all gone tits up today. I'm even considering phoning the crisis team again.

[Catkins]

I haven't even managed to take the dog out yet.

[BlueIris]

You're not a failure, you're not well and it's NOT your fault.

Call the crisis line if you need to, or just chat to us - I lose it completely if I think my husband's ill, got a thread from the other Christmas where he had flu and I was so stressed I thought I had a panic attack and it actually turned out to be gastroenteritis!

You're not alone x

[Catkins]

Thank you. I've contacted them and they're ringing back and a friend is coming round too.

I've taken a tablet they said I could take if my anxiety was bad. It's the same as for when I sleep I hope it kicks in too.

[BlueIris]

Alright, keep talking to us for as long as you need to.

[Catkins]

I thought I was making improvements, I thought my head was in the right place. I don't know why it changed this morning. I just feel all the problems with Mike's health is never ending and I'm never going to feel better.

[Catkins]

Ffs, I have travelled all over the world, I've done so many different things. I've been to festivals and concerts and I can't cope with anything now.