Re: My grief over my mother's death
Originally Posted by
Catkins
It's awful packaging up peoples possessions. You look at things that were precious to them and then you have to let them go. Doing my step-grans house and my mum's clothes was just exhausting. I especially hated doing my mum's stuff - there were brand new things that she'd never had chance to wear, it was heart breaking. Then because of lockdown we couldn't take them to the charity shops so they had to be stored at mine until the charity shops opened, then they wouldn't take it all at once (even though they said on the phone they would), so I had to drive around with half of it the car for 24 hours until I could go back the next day. It was all just awful really.
When my mum died, my brothers and I walked around the house and chose the things which meant something to us as individuals. There was no arguing or squabbling like with some families. It was actually a lovely experience if that makes any sense? Because there were a lot of memories connected to those objects - and most of them funny! We had a damn good laugh!
I chose a pair of nutcrackers which I'd given her as a present when I was a child, a ceramic chicken which reminded me of the one from the TV show 'Bread', and amongst a few other things - I took a bright red scarf because it smelled of Mum - a combo of Silk Cut ciggie smoke and Opium perfume. Red was very much Mum's colour and I could 'see' her walking towards me in the shopping centre in town on a Friday morning and me thinking what a lucky sod I was to have such a smart looking mother. I kept the scarf in a drawer and I'd take it out to breathe 'her' in when I was missing her the most and it really did help me. Eventually, the smell faded and the day that I could no longer smell the perfume and ciggie smoke was the day I started to wear the scarf myself. Ten years later, I still have the it, and the memory of meeting Mum in town is as clear as ever.
Last edited by NoraB; 10-06-21 at 09:23.
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