Re: Anxiety surrounding my neighbors?
Thanks, FMP. I do have a Ring doorbell, as well as the security kit so I know if doors are opened and I have a motion sensor in my basement, plus a camera in my living room and another in my basement. It's not perfect but it is something. I do have to keep myself from checking in on my dog too much during the day, and I don't set the alarm at night because there have been times it's gone off for no real reason, like the front door sensor registers a disconnect even though it's still closed and locked. That's happened a couple of times when I'm away from the house and I've panicked every time, but been able to look at the system and my camera and determine the issue. It's a lot worse when I'm asleep and the alarm starts going off .
It's still hard to leave my boy, and I don't know if that will ever be easier. I still do leave quickly and have to look around because I'm always a little afraid someone will watch me leave and think that's the prime time to try and break in. My boy does have a pretty booming bark for such a little guy, but I'd really prefer if something happened that he would run and hide because I wouldn't want him to be in any danger.
I still have to push out intrusive thoughts, but I'm working on it.
Also the most random of fears - my walls and baseboards will, from time to time, just turn yellow. Like my walls will drip yellow stuff, or yellow patches will appear on my baseboards even if I've just repainted them. I had thought my dog had been having accidents, but it happened before we moved in as well and it doesn't smell or anything, and obviously he's not urinating high up on the wall anyway. Today I was in my kitchen and I noticed yellow stuff on my brand new blinds. No odor, but when I tried to wipe it off I noticed it's very thick and sticky, almost like sap. I haven't really cooked much, and nothing that could have caused that. So now I sit here hoping that my house isn't haunted, on top of everything else. Like I'm aware that sounds ridiculous, but my mind just runs wild when there is no explanation.
EDIT: I posted on Reddit to see if anyone had suggestions about the issue and the thought was that a smoker probably lived in my house before I bought it and they just repainted the walls, but it's bleeding through. That's definitely a possibility, but I'm not sure why it would be on my new blinds (and they don't seem to know either). So now it's either my house is haunted or someone has broken in and decided to have a nice smoke while I wasn't around (unlikely for several reasons, I think). Not sure which I would find scarier, lol. Just wish it could be as simple as saying "hm, that's weird" instead of instantly catastrophizing, but I guess that's the nature of the beast.
Last edited by .Poppy.; 05-10-22 at 19:28.
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