Okay so I was made redundant three months ago and since then have been applying for jobs daily. Other than this I have given up and stay in bed constantly struggling with suicidal ideation. I hate myself and always have but this seems to have intensified everything all I want to do is work but I am nervous when I do find a job I will be useless because I am a panic attack crying sobbing mess. Anyone else struggled with something like this? What helps? I am at a loss just feel so worthless