Re: Hating myself because I am unemployed
Originally Posted by
Sugarrush
Okay so I was made redundant three months ago and since then have been applying for jobs daily. Other than this I have given up and stay in bed constantly struggling with suicidal ideation. I hate myself and always have but this seems to have intensified everything all I want to do is work but I am nervous when I do find a job I will be useless because I am a panic attack crying sobbing mess. Anyone else struggled with something like this? What helps? I am at a loss just feel so worthless
A bit more to your story!
Put this into perspective SR. You were made redundant 3 months ago. That's a relatively short period of time compared to some..
Being redundant doesn't make you worthless, it makes you jobless, and it's not forever.
I knew there was a depression issue from reading your 'bed thread', and now it's obvious and you need help with that - especially if you're experiencing suicidal thoughts.
I stand by what I said in the other thread. This isn't anything that can't be turned around with professional help and effort from you. And there's a lot to be said for one door closing and another one opening up to better things.
I was one of Maggie Thatcher's unemployed in the 80s and then my job was made redundant in the early 90s. However, had I have stayed in that job, I'd never have gone for the job I did, and had ten very happy years as opposed to clocking on and off in a factory simply to put food on the table and pay the mortgage. As one door closes, right?
Are you getting any support for your mental health issues?
This phase will pass. Nothing in life is forever. Better days will come, but you do have to help yourself lovely - even if it's to make a phone call to see somebody who can help you?
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