Originally Posted by
mila
I had my second dose of AZ vaccine on Sunday, after worrying about it for weeks and missing my previous appointment. I tried to talk to my GP about my concerns, knowing how I was after the first and that it will only be worse now because now the period of concern is extended to 28 days. I wanted to have a different vaccine and I know that is not the policy, but there are exemptions and being forced to take one risk while you are not allowed to accept another one seems totally unreasonable and unfair. I felt like there was no one to really talk to who wants to hear you out, and those you try to talk to seem either misinformed or just think that you will believe whatever they tell you even if it makes no sense. That does nothing for someone with anxiety, just makes things 100 times worse. I wanted to have my vaccine at the hospital thinking that was my best shot at finding someone who would care and try to help and the nurse there actually told me there were no cases of clots after second dose and I am worried over nothing. When I said what do you mean, they reported a number of cases (I don't know the latest numbers and also wonder how they do their calculations when there is a delay period), she said 'Show me the data!' I am not sure if she thought she would make me feel better saying that, but it really did not have that effect. Then she also tried to explain how the clots happen, which also was not correct. I decided to just take the vaccine and try to get through this as best as I can, as there was really no other choice. Now I have to deal with that!
I am on Day 4 and losing my mind. I have been having a headache all day. It feels a little like a tension headache, but now every headache is a reason to panic. I am not sure what to do, I don't want to rush to A&E right away, but I am terrified. The hardest thing is feeling like there is just no support at all or anyone who wants to listen. This year has been so difficult and this is now the culmination for me, I feel like everything is falling apart. People at work have been talking about organizing a meet up in Barcelona! All I could think of is that I cannot plan anything because something bad may happen
I was reading all the posts on this forum before and mostly avoided posting myself, mainly because there is a lot of statistics being thrown around in response to any concerns. I am sure most of us are aware of the numbers. The problem is that most of us with health anxiety worry about the worst case scenario, even if the chances are 0.00001%. Especially when you hear of real people this happened to! That did it for me, just ruined every chance of reasoning with data, realizing they probably did not even think this could happen.