Hi there all
hope you are all well
i am a long term viewer of this post (well i did when i had a bout of anxiety a few years ago) but this time i cant shake it off
im not here for drawing attention to myself or for sympathy but just going to talk a little brief about myself so you peeps get to know my situation and advise if you can
so im a 38yr old male living with 2 young children and my missus. i dont have any brothers or sisters or any family and my inlaws live far away. i have always been an anxious person but now it really is scary post covid. In the past i used to have a few short lived anxiety moments and move on but as time has gotten by these have become more and more instence.
the first major instance was about 5 years ago in my job. At work I was expected to do more than my workload by a very politically minded individual(im a straightforward guy) where i had phone calls and txts being sent to me at stupid O clock in the morning. as time went by this got too much. I developed a pain in my lower left abdomen and as im only about 46KG my weight rapidly drops when such stuff happens and I lost my appetite + stopped eating. several visits to the doctor who said its gastritis form which i was convinced it was not but i took the antacid tablets which did not help. as time went by my weight dropped libido went, i became quiet etc and then i had a camera down me and it all showed clear. during this time my mental health spiraled out of control even though i was sleeping and i said to my wife 1 day that im going to A and E and was terrified of the kids for fear im going to get admitted. this hospital did a few bloods and said all is ok, seems like IBS. then i discovered buscopan (i dont eat medicine unless i need to incl paracetamol) buscopan helped.
i went on holiday after this and this sum what eased my mind but as i got back i was anxious again. i dropped to 38KGish by this time so was very weak and bony. after a final ultrasound scan and bloods all was clear and at this time i started to get to grips that it must have been an anxiety sitation and over the next few months miracosuly my appetite came back and thankfully i regained health
so now the current sitation im in and very scared is 10 weeks ago i had covid. was not bad at all. i had 2 days fever followed by a week of loss of smell taste and a upset stomach. my cough was not bad and i hada raw chest ache. this has all gone now thankfully
However 3 weeks ago is when hell has started. it started off by my hands and feet tingling waking up in the morning with my pink finger all the way down to my elbow numb and i put this down to my tight shirt. however after this things have gone very bad. i am currently on my 2nd day off work sick. the pins and needles in my hands have become very painful weidly when i lie down and i cant sleep. i have not slept well for the last 2 weeks. in this time i went to my docs a few times and the usual stress anxiety stress and you will be fine but i cant sleep at night. so i went to a and E and they said its pheriperhal neurpathy and they advised paracetmaol as the first cheap less risky medicien before there some others i can try. they have said it may be permanent
so peeps i have lost weight im down to 43kgish which is still ok for me but not good as im going downhill. my other symptons are brain fogand extreme fatigue that comes and goes. so is there anybody else that is in my shoes. what can i do? what can i eat as i feel sick. its a weird phenomena as when i eat midway chewing it makes me gag so i sip mint tea before hand. i wont say anymore i will let you read and reply
also just to add as well recently is that a couple of nights ago i developed a very weird senstation where my handhood just "shrunk" and felt odd. unfortunately i have been unable to get an erection. also it burnt really bad few nights ago that did not let mee sleep. "https://www.mirror.co.uk/news/uk-news/shrinking-penises-night-terrors-among-24545920" im quite healthy and never had it before. also it hurts when i pee and i have been needing to pee more despite only little coming out. i really dont know if its my anxiety or am i now in the grips of long covid?
any advice would be appreciated
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