Hi,

just heard my oldest brother has died, not sure of the circumstances. He was in failing health but had left a note. He would have been 73 this month.
I visited him last week, had a huge sense of urgency and took him two of his favourite cakes which I know he was happily eating all last week. It was the first time I had seen him since Covid started. He was anti-vaxx (Covid would have killed him instantly, he had heart problems) and didn't even believe in Covid. He felt the pandemic had 'stolen his old age'. So, so glad I got there last week.

When I was born my Mum and I didn't bond. David was 12 and he became a surrogate parent. All the love and security I had seemed to come from him. He went to Oxford Uni and started on a lifetime of drugs use. But I loved him so much. He was one of those whose MH ensured they trod the line between genius and insanity, and he fell off the line several times.

RIP my dear brother. May you be peaceful. xxx