So it’s currently half one in the morning and the reason I am up is obviously because of my stomach! So about 3 hours ago my belly started hurting and I needed to go but couldn’t go at the time so I just kept holding on. So now I have just been and it was like literal mush😭 when I wiped it was watery and there was literally loads of tiny black specks almost like pepper and there was also loads of red specks just like the same as the black. So I’m paranoid because of the way the stool looked and how once again I have diarreah and I am also paranoid about the black specks and the red specks ! Why can’t this just end I am still so certain that this is cancer! I can’t sleep as all I have on my mind now is complete and utter worry!