Originally Posted by
TaleOn11
I suppose I should start positive. I decided, instead of eliminating reassurance rituals altogether, I might as well shorten them to make it more bearable. And while its still tough its at least better than before.
But as the weeks go by, its like my mind keeps digging and digging more into the darkness and my thoughts are getting more nonsensical to justify my fears yet I believe them anyway. Plus situations I use to be okay with are now monotonous thanks to these thoughts.
I don't know what to do. I'm still too frightened to talk about these things to my therapist and I feel like I'll never recover unless I can go back in time to before this pandemic and the UK government's horrifically incompetent ways to handle it (seriously if I didn't despise politics before, I do now) were happening. Of course I'll never give up hope and the other good news is, my work coach is helping me with unemployment but its like life has now become a chore, and a horrible one at that.
I know I keep posting like this all the time but I just need more advice. I want to know that there's at least a light at the end of the tunnel and that I'll finally be able to get back into that light again.