I developed a condition called "Chronic Pelvic Pain Syndrome" likely due to a lifetime of tensing my pelvic floor muscles -- anxiety, panic, stress.
It's messing up so many things in my life, when things were already really hard for me to manage.
Now I have a hard painful nodule under my ear to go along with the tinnitus and ear pressure I've been having for months.
I think my anxiety is killing me.
And if it isn't, it's making me wish it were.
Despite this, I've managed my actual panic symptoms well through meditation and things of the sort. But I can't shake my depression. I just kind of hate existing right now. I wake up unhappy to be awake. I want whatever this all is to be over. If things aren't going to get better, but worse... What's the point.