Re: I am *really* struggling with "normal" life
Hi Erin,
I don't really have any words of advice, but I absolutely get what you are feeling. I was going to grad school with a lot of passion, but I ultimately dropped it for now because I don't know if I want to do that anymore but I also don't know what I want to do instead. I'm back in the office too - my boss gave me my own cubicle office space so that I could be away from others and not have to mask all the time, which is great because I have to wear glasses to work on the computer and the mask was interfering with that.
But, it's so hard to be away and locked up in an office after over a year of doing what I needed, getting my work done and still having some freedom. I don't have children but it's so hard to leave my dog behind every day, and he has anxiety too so the transition has been really hard on him.
It's also hard because it feels like everyone is just getting back to normal and things aren't normal or safe yet, so I feel left behind. This last weekend my friend had a birthday party and I so badly wanted to go, and to go tailgating with them after, but I couldn't because I felt the crowd was too big and I didn't feel like it was a safe choice. I've gotten to do so things in small groups with vaxed friends, but honestly, I hate not being able to just go out and socialize, I feel very lonely.
It's hard place we are coming out of and I think we have all changed as a result of it; the world has changed too. I honestly don't know what to expect, just I suppose to take things one day at a time as Pulisa says.
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