I have been dealing with anxiety all my life but since the death of my dad 17 years ago it has developed into health anxiety. I am obsessed with my fear of cancer and feel it’s just a matter of time before I am diagnosed with some form of cancer, to me I’m almost certain it will be bowel cancer.

Everyday I have to put on an act in front of my kids and it’s exhausting me. I haven’t felt happy in years and I am merely existing day to day. Every morning I have wave after wave of anxiety washing over me, it’s awful. I’m obsessed with my bowel movements and don’t know how to stop. I am on a waiting list for psychotherapy, a year long waiting list! If it wasn’t for my kids I honestly wouldn’t want to go on, this is no life at all.