Re: So fed up with HA
Just want to talk about this from the point of view of somebody who's chosen meds. I'm on a relatively low dose, and even when I've had blips I've always resisted increasing my dose.
With that said, they've saved my sanity.
HOWEVER, they're just a part of something larger - attending CBT when offered and doing the homework, checking in with myself and others if I think I'm being irrational, and reminding myself to practice self-care. I'm in the middle of a bit of a blip right now, and I'm making a conscious effort to address and acknowledge my feelings so they won't find an outlet I don't want - a massive HA flare, for instance.
I don't feel numb. I still cry, sometimes - most recently at a sad piece of sculpture I get scared, too, but the difference is that the fear mostly doesn't paralyse me and I can mostly still function.
It's not just about the health anxiety specifically, it's about accepting that your thought patterns aren't rational and learning to consciously replace them with something more sensible.
As Nora says, there's no miracle cure, just finding ways to work with it so that you can live your life.
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