Re: When your biggest fear becomes reality! Trigger warning!
Originally Posted by
Anxiety121
I have been on this forum for more than a year with blood in stool, not even a lot of blood in stool. Just a little I have visible hemorrhoids, blood was sometimes bright but sometimes dark and little bits sometimes mucasy or sometimes would make a little bit of my stool look red. I honestly did think it was all in my head. I was referred for a colonoscopy because my fit test was high but that was delayed because of covid and I became pregnant but even after birth they waited 8 months to give me a appointment just because I’m 31. So I had my colonoscopy and guess what the find a large polyp that looks cancerous. They wrote cancer found on my report. And have arranged ct and mri scans. For someone who has health anxiety this has been the biggest shock, I just cried for days and kept looking at my daughter and thinking how I didn’t wanna leave her. It also felt so surreal I actually couldn’t and still can’t believe it’s happening. It’s been 20 days since my colonoscopy I am now awaiting for the consultant to call with a plan. Funny thing is my symptoms were so like hemorrhoids style symptoms. Never had no stomach pains or lots of blood none of that. It’s life I guess, what’s meant to happen will happen. Rest is in Gods hands.
They wrote 'cancer found' on your report without the biopsy results etc? Are you sure about that wording? It didn't say 'suspected' or words to that effect?
I get that this is scare factor a gazillion for you but my aunty had bowel cancer and she died 40 years later (of old age) and we've done some serious advancing medically speaking since then!
You're automatically going with your worst (but least likely) scenario.
At the moment nobody has categorially told you you have cancer and I'm presuming they took a biopsy? If so, three weeks is a long time to be waiting if they were suspecting cancer during the colonoscopy?
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