Re: Massive relapse
Originally Posted by
silver_shoes
I first came to this forum many years ago, under a previous screen name, when I had started having totally out of the blue panic/anxiety attacks when I was driving. This is something that went away completely for a long time, but sadly seems to have started up again recently. The strange thing is it only happens on rural roads.. I am generally fine in busy areas. (it is because the original panic attack happened on a quiet road so I think I’ve obviously associated that link somewhere in my head!).
Absolutely! You once had a panic attack on a rural road so your amygdala took note and remembered. Amy (I call the amygdala this) is actually trying to protect you because she remembers that you were 'in danger' in a similar situation so the fight or flight response goes on and that is to protect you from harm. Problem is that Amy doesn't know that it was a panic attack and not 'real' danger. Do you see? This is also how phobias are created..
This current period of acute anxiety which I cannot seem to get out of, started towards the end of September when we travelled down here for our house move. I was a passenger in the car and was a total mess feeling extremely panicky on the motorway,. which was very scary. That was the 22nd of September and basically since then I have been in a very bad way mentally, very on edge and anxious the whole time. It has taken the shine off what should be an exciting period in our lives of buying a brand-new house which we absolutely love but I feel because of my current anxiety I cannot fully embrace everything.
Moving house is stressful for those who don't struggle with anxiety. It's a huge deal so it's inevitable that your MH is going to take a kicking, right?
You may wonder why on earth we have purchased a house in the countryside if I have this issue, well at the point when we first started the process to move house which was back in March, I really genuinely did not think my driving issues were still present. at least not to this extent. I also feel that I cannot keep letting my anxiety dictate what I do anymore, we have moved here for a better quality of life than we had when we were living in a city suburb... I desperately want to be able to embrace all that life has to offer living here, and know that I’m finally able to do things with my family easily rather than it being a military operation to organise like it was all the years when I lived miles away. but now I’m scared I’m going to be stuck! my husband does not drive, so it is just me. However even if he did drive, I don’t want him ferrying me around, I want to address this problem and sort it. I need to be able to because living out here means that I have to drive to do pretty much anything.
My advice is to get out on those roads at every opportunity. Walk, drive - whatever. If you're in the car, play nice music or listen to some comedy. You have to start making positive associations with being on country roads.
I cannot deny I am more than a little bit worried about the side-effects of the medication. I'm getting myself worked up about driving into the village to collect them from the dispensary! Which I feel is silly because it’s only about a mile and a half up the road.
Does your village have a nice cafe? Or some nice shops? If so, next time, promise yourself a coffee (decaf, obvs) or a small treat. Make sure there's something pleasant about the trip which the brain will then learn to associate with driving etc. I do this with hospital appointments and an example is that I have a dental appointment later today so I am going somewhere nice for my dinner afterwards..
Good luck with the CBT.
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