The last few years I have been in a viscous cycle where I use cannabis when I’m not in a bout of anxiety, i start over using and wind up back in a massive anxiety hole. I quit when I’m really anxious, but when I’m feeling better I convince myself it will be fine and start again. Then when I inevitably end up anxious I blame myself for being so stupid.

The last week has been really tough, back to constant worrying, not sleeping and feeling sick. The positive is that I really think that this time I can quit for good. Just wish I didn’t feel so terrible, and I just want to get back to the old me. I have a loving and supportive partner, but feel like I keep letting her down.

I’ve been off it for 5 days now (since I started feeling anxious) and I really want this thread to be a reminder of how bad it makes me feel, and hopefully a record of when I finally had the strength to quit.

Any advice or support welcome, and thanks for listening.