I need someone to slap me, please

[Lana]

Yesterday I went to an ORTHO doctor, because i mechanically hurt my wrist, and the pain was getting worse, together with swelling.. The x ray was taken, and then the doctor said he would give me a combination of steroid + lidocaine shot, to calm it down so it can heal.

He went out, he brought the shot himself, and he personally gave me the shot, because the spot was sensitive ( a big vain there). The shot itself was very painful.

Later I started ruminating if there was something suspicious in the shot ( syringe), other than lidocaine and steroid ( like somebody's spit, or something) - because I did not see it being prepared. I know this is utterly ridiculous and also pathetic, but, I suffer from severe clinical OCD, that is why I think this and ruminate. It is horrible.

Can one of the Forum's senior admins / members just scream at me, telling me that I am being ridiculous, please? It actually would work, I just want to stop intrusive thoughts.

I was thinking of going back to the clinic, to ask, but I would be hugely ashamed, so that tells you everything.

Thank you so much in advance, whoever responds.

Lana

[BlueIris]

You're being completely ridiculous, yes.

Is there something else bothering you?

[Lana]

BlueIris, thank you very much!

Well, as to other thing - a lot in my life makes me pretty unhappy. I have also had anxiety growing recently, and I am truly trying my best to control it as much as I can. As you know, nobody likes to be like this, miserable most of the time.

But - thank you again, I needed some of you guys to be harsh with me, and that it exactly what you did.

I am moving on from this shameful thought, that is it. I will later go for a long walk, will make nice dinner...As many f us here : one day at the time.

[BlueIris]

Dinner and a walk sound lovely.

Don't beat yourself up over it? It was a thought that took hold, and now you've dismissed it.

Sending love and good wishes.

[Lana]

That is so nice of you, really, and thank you. You made me feel better.

I am sending you the same. The Forum is so precious, and, as I said before, I feel privileged to be comforted by you guys here.

[Magic]

A couple of hugs from me XXXX

[Lana]

Thank you Magic! Hugs and kisses back!