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    Hi, all. I'm a 28 year old male. I live with a rare, severe disability as well as a couple of chronic health conditions that went undiagnosed and untreated for years. Not feeling safe in my body has done a number on my mental health. OCD and health anxiety are a troublesome combination. Sore throat? Must be Covid. (Was actually allergies.) Mild chest pain? Must be cardiac. (Turned out to be bad posture.) Most recently, I started experiencing skipped heartbeats and a sense of momentary sickness a thousand times a day. After a battery of tests, Iím told the ectopic beats are probably harmless and are being caused by chronic dehydration, malnutrition, lack of sleep, and waves of excess adrenaline and cortisol as a result.

    Iím joining this forum because my stress levels are legitimately ruining my life. I canít focus. Iím weeks behind in everything that matters. I drain my friends and family with my constant blathering. ďWhat do you think? Are you sure? How do you know? What ifÖ?Ē Itís exhausting. My body almost literally doesnít know how to relax. My last thought before I fall asleep most nights is fear; and fear is always the first thing I feel when I wake up in the morning. Fear for whatís next and gratitude for waking up at all. This has been going on for close to ten years.

    My mindfulness practice and attending to my basic needs usually takes the edge off, but feeling my heart stop like that saw me nosediving again. Itís been happening for a month. Iím sick of it. The good news is that the fear is giving way to anger. Hearing that the heart is structurally fine was a huge relief. I should be all right in the short term. But in the longer term, Iím done with being scared of death. I have things to do that have nothing to do with this kind of misery.

    Thank you for being a resource. Time for me to go perform some self-care.

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    Welcome to No More Panic!

    Hiya BodyOnBackwards and welcome to NMP

    Why not take a look at our articles on our home page, they contain a wealth of information and
    are a great starting place for your time on the forum.

    I hope you find the as site helpful and informative as I have and that you get the help and
    support you need here and hope that you meet a few friends along the way
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    Re: Introduction

    Welcome to NMP; BodyOnBackwards

    It sounds like you have a lot to deal with. I'm glad you joined our forum and perhaps you'll be able to ask questions and vent or whatever on here so you don't burden or put too much pressure on your friends. Sometimes the very people we trust a and confide in will walk away which leaves us suffering in silence and that isn't good either.

    Keep going with your mindfulness and meditation if it helps.

    See you around the forum.

    ~Sal
    Last edited by Scissel73; 22-10-21 at 18:47.

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