Hello I am here because my anxiety is massively spiralling and I feel I need some sense talking to me please..
I have been posting recently about my anxiety/panic attacks when I have been driving, this is an old problem which seems to have come back.
My husband does not drive. He passed his driving test many years ago aged around 18 but then for many years he/we lived in a city with excellent public transport, so did not feel like he needed a car.
Now however, it is becoming more important that he resumes driving again. My panic attacks have been happening on rural roads for some bizarre reason, and we have recently moved out to the countryside..! (I did not realise that my problems are going to flare up again to this extent when we decided to buy the house!).
I am starting therapy next month, and has been prescribed some medication and I am positive but I do want to overcome this issue however in the meantime it would be really helpful if my husband is able to drive.
So recently he has decided to have some refresher driving lessons so that he is able to drive my car, just because it has been so long since he has driven - he thinks around 18 years or so.
This brings me to the reason for my post - The driving instructor has just arrived, and he is having the first of these refresher lessons as we speak.
I am going out of my mind with anxiety over this!
The funny thing is, my husband was not anxious about it at all. It is all me, and I was trying so hard to not let my anxiety come across to him because I didn’t want to make him nervous for his driving lesson.
My heart is racing and I’m sweating profusely.., I have images of something awful happening even though, of course, the driving instructor has a dual- control car and I am sure he is responsible and would be able to tell if my husband was not capable of driving somehow.
It is a two hour lesson, and I personally think this is too much at once (in terms of concentration/tiredness) especially for somebody who has not driven for a long time, but apparently that is how the driving school does it when it’s a refresher course.
I’m quite literally shaking with anxiety. I have horrible images of the police coming around to my house and telling me something terrible has happened, please help me get myself out of this!!