So I always knew my dad hurt my mum growing up and I also got it too sometimes but it never bothered me in my life as an adult. I recently learnt the extent of my mum's abuse, of which she suffered things no human should be subjected to. I am extremely ashamed and disgusted with my father and I can't help feeling my mum must have been so scared and confused to not speak out and get help, she just took beating after beating and protected us children the best she could. I'm not sure how to process the hurt she must have felt and I'm not sure how to help her through.