Originally Posted by
cattia
Thanks Pulisa
I am scared of the fatigue of long covid and the fact that it won’t allow me to lead a normal life any more or enjoy anything. When I was in my early twenties I had a virus (flu or something similar) and it was at a time (like now) when I was very stressed as I was in my first job and had a lot of stuff going on. I struggled to feel better afterwards, and it triggered my first and worst ever major episode of anxiety and depression. At that time I was convinced I had ME. I was so sick I couldn’t really function but I kept pushing myself as I didn’t want to lose my job and have to move back home. I guess essentially it was a kind of breakdown. In the end a Dr prescribed me antidepressants and they worked like a miracle for me and I slowly recovered. I think ever since that I’ve had a fear of feeling like that forever and being stuck in s cycle of feeling too unwell to do day to day tasks. I am afraid of having to stop work and how we would survive financially, and of not being able to enjoy spending time with my kids or enjoy any of the pleasures of life. I feel like long covid is going to take everything away from me that is important and that I have worked for so I guess that’s what I’m so afraid of. Even writing it down makes me feel scared and tearful. And the heart palps are non stop today. But I do know this is a cycle for me. Trouble is my key thought pattern is ‘I could be in this anxiety cycle and still have long covid’…